far as the East is from the West

I struggle with knowing my destiny in life. What am I suppose to do with my ENTIRE life. To think about planning for the next ten or even five years scares me.

I find this ironic. Typically I am the type of person who wants everything written down in my planner for all of the events happening that month. I want to schedule in relationships, ministry – life. I have become so unsure of what I am destined to do for the rest of my life.

But then I remember, my destiny isn’t a destination – it’s a journey. It’s a series of saying ‘Yes’ to God. That doesn’t mean only saying ‘yes’ when you want to do something but simply saying ‘yes’ when he tells you it’s time.

The more I embrace my Father and keep pursuing His heart the bigger the ‘yes’. It is not easy. I would be lying if I said I have not thought about the ‘yes’ He has called me into and felt scared. I know that He is with me, that He will protect me, but going into the unknown is scary.

REAL TALK.

Recently I have been feeling a lot of anxiety around saying ‘yes’. I have been so comfortable in life. I know that by saying ‘yes’, it will not be easy. It will be stretching and rewarding. But that also means it will be refining. More shaping and pushing will happen in life, growing pains will happen. An honestly growing pains suck. I had the WORST growing pains as a kid so I can only imagine with these “adult growing pains” will feel like.

BUT

If I stay stuck in my fear, afraid of growing pains, I will never grow!! How can I become stronger if I never use those muscles.

In the growing pains, He is my comfort.

In the pressing, He is making new wine.

In your ‘yes’, He is taking you on a journey.